It's hard to just be friends with you.

Haven't updated properly.This week was one of my worst.Everything's just screwing up nd I don't know where to start.

Monday
Fucked up school;didn't have flag raising=]]Joongie!You jump,I jump=]]Lessons were fuck,nothing much.

Tuesday
I think it rained?Can't remember but whatever.School was shit I guess.Sec2s had some film studies shit.I did what I had to do nd had a early night.

Wednesday
Ponned school with Joongie.Sam came over for a while before going to meet Grace.I haven't seen Grace in 9000years=[[Slacked my whole day away at home.Slept slept slept.Talked on the phone a lot too.

Thursday
Went to school nd it rained=]]Yunnie Joongie Blackie nd I poured water out of our balcony so it'll rain.Hahas,guess it worked.Thursday was so fucked up.Talked to Val in the morning.Sigh;I hated going into class.I wished school would disappear.Val helped me a lot=]Thanks dude.Nd Huimei=]]Went to square2 after school with Ashash nd Yunnie.Walked around nd ate my favorite korean ice cream=]Went home nd slept.

Friday
Went to school but it didn't rain;fuck luh.Went for flag raising nd shit.Shit lessons nd fucked up environment.I seriously don't know shit for physics.Fuck luh.Smsed Joongie nd Yunnie=]After school went to Sec2s classrooms with Blackie.Hahas,her mother was gnna be late so we waited with her.Was gnna watch movie but I just felt really sian nd Ash didn't want to watch so we ended up not watching.Sorry Yunnie&Joongie.Bused back nd on the way,I felt like fainting so I called Sam nd she met me at the busstop.Tonight is Travis's chalet;not sure if I'm going.I just want to sleep every minute of my life away now.

Worst timing ever,SS midyears on Wed,I haven't started on fuck.Val/CK,I need your notes like now=[

I feel so dead;like I have no mood to do anything at all.I don't want to study,play,party,club,eat,or go out.Its so weird nd I never thought I'll be affected this badly.I swear if I didn't have Xinwei/Val to talk to,I'll be like stabbing myself with pens alrd.I never wanted this to happened.Waiting for S was painful enough,I don't know how I'm going to handle this.Whatever it is,I need to get hold of myself before I tear myself apart.I'm sorry.

At least this time my parents are showing concern.Yesterday,they asked me if everything was ohkay.It's so obvious something happened.I sleep from 8+ till 6 in the morning,I don't go out nd I just lock myself in my room.What could be not wrong.Whatever,they asked if I wanted them to bring me to the dentist for braces=]]I said yeah.I feel this is it.Everything can go back to normal;please,I really need this.

Shall tuitor tmr so Sun is free for studying.I feel like getting into a car accident on Labour day then I don't have to seat for SS midyears.Plus I won't have to go school for a while.At least it'll keep me sane.Ohkay,time's up,game over,I need to leave this fuckhole I've been in.

I pray you would realise that I'm still in love with you.