If I could take your pain away,
I would scream for you,
And I'll bleed for you;
So you'll never feel this way.

Today is one of the fuckiest day ever.I hate SC like fuck,seriously,feel like burning down the school during the weekends.

In the morning had to walk to school=[[nd blahblah,took pictures in the toilet again=]]Upload later,I'm damn lazy=[Then flagraising,had spot check,after spot check had to go see the motherfucker lim;omg,I swear I wanted to punch her stupid pok face.Plus she had lipstick on her teeth which me nd Val were trying so hard not to laugh at.The whole time I just stared into the amphi nd I totally ignored her nd she kept asking me questions but I everything also say [don't know]Damn retarded,2counts of defiance nd 1 for littering,worst than what I thought.nd it's damn stupid,for the first defiance she wrote [Worked with Joy and Shuwen when told not to.]Second defiance is [Did not run when instructed to.]What the hell luh,then blahblah.Fuck luh,didn't want to sign the fucking slip,I felt like stabbing her with the pen luh.

Then went back class,we were like alrd quite late so I wanted to pon first lesson but Val couldn't cause she had to see Wang,sucked luh.Oh,whoever brought my bag up come find me,I buy you lolli,thanks=]Then went for physics nd I was damn chao sian,ate my medicine nd went to lie down,I was damn=[[Talked to Aleena nd she made me smile^^Nd I had to answer question again but I didn't know how;aiyah,I'll study physics another day.I feel really bad cause I know misslin is like damn nice to me=[[Ohwells,then had chem which was even worst,I was like =[[[[[[[[[ times 1000000times.So I took another pill nd went to sleep.Then woke up nd break alrd.Went to talk to COers with Val nd we were just damn annoyed at everything luh.

Then had double english which was so fucking stupid.We did comprehension nd I got all my answers wrong;srsly,english shouldn't be my first language luh.Mine should be like sign language or something.Then we had to do some stupid filming for CE nd we went to the gallery to do the hand game which was rather stupid cause it was such a hot day nd stuff.I kinda snap for the first time to the class[Cassi].Sorry dude,I was just=[[Partner is so cute,love her to bits.Her face is damn cute luh.Ohkay,so anyway then blahblah nd we went back to class nd we had to write down conflicts nd stuff.Whatever,I find this kinda CE lessons so pointless cause everything is so fake.You say you'll forget about it but when the situation comes along,can you forget about it?So anyway,Pek nd Julia brought up issues nd the faker was like blahblah,aiyah,too knn to talk about.

The fact that she told everyone about it really pisses me off.What the fuck luh,enough is enough can.I know I'm probably the worst student in the class;I don't listen in class,I attitude the teachers,I play a fool all the time,I don't do my work,fine,whatever you want to say but it's my life nd I won't let it screw up.I won't let anything screw it up.I know what I have to do nd I will do it when I have to but I hate to explain why I do stuff,it's just like that;fine,maybe it's my friends who influence me but at least I know they'll be here for me when you guys won't so don't ever ever ever judge who they are.

You know when everyone was seating ard her nd she was just talking like she knew the whole thing but does she know how we feel?Do you know;being in 2pr last year was alrd so demoralizing[although it was the best thing that happened to me in SC].The whole staff room just spreads everything like fire.We had like over 200demerit points altogether but we still did everything together,if one of us was treated unfairly the whole class helps out nd shit nd I was so thankful for that.Even thou we had trouble getting along,everything was still ohkay nd when teachers looked down on us we didn't care.Does she know what it feels like when 4of us are targeted by a teacher just cause of last year.Me nd Val studied so fucking hard to get outta CO cause we need the double science but seeing things like that makes me think twice now,do I really want fuck up my life just for double science,I rather single it nd love going to school everyday,being with them the whole day.Does she know how it feels when one of us is forced to betray the other,so scheming,fuck you.All they tell us is they're doing this for our own sick but do you think it'll help when the reasoning seems rather pointless.I fucking hate this,what's wrong with working in a group with your friends?Even if our work isn't A grade or anything,does it prove anything?That we weren't trying to do it?If so I rather just not go for lectures;since I don't learn anything from it.I go lectures nd I try to understand but it seems like she goes so fast cause if she goes slowly,SY will be bored but what the fuck,might as well not give us lecture.We might not be able to express ourselves in a appropriate way due to our studies nd we lose out on a lot but if this is what we'll get just cause of the past,then I rather be a dropout kid.

I'm sorry Hayle.I broke my promise again.I tried my best but I couldn't,I'm so sorry.But whatever it is,thanks for being there everytime I'm down/sad/happy/sick.I'm sorry I always spazz about her nd forget about everything but trust me girl,you'll always have a special place in my hear ohkay.I'll never let this friendship ever ever drift.Nd thanks Sam;for everything.

Recess was just [Fuck you fuck you fuck you.]SK came back=]]Nd SK said SC is stupid now.HAHAS,nd Val nd me went to seat on the swing for a while^^Then we went back to class nd had PW;I hate choo,does the way I wear my shoe concern you?Will it KILL you if I don't tighten my shoelace?Just fucking fuck off luh.

Went to meet Aleena nd Thisbe;Ash went to parkway for grocery shopping?Hahas,cute.Then we went to fareast nd brought fruits=]]nd I cut my hair,it's thinner now nd shorter,HAHAS,nd my fringe is rather short,actually not really,but he layered my hair like a lot.Hahas,the hair wash was like damn long.Hahas,Aleena was like [JOAN!Why must you always cut your hair slanted?]Hahas,I like mah.

Then walked around for a while nd went home=]]Came online nd talked to Julia nd stuff nd then went to sleep cause Kien told me I can sleep my problems away.I'm sure Kien-.-I woke up nd I was damn cold.Woke up nd went to bath nd stuff then came online.My right eye is dying,it's tearing non-stop like mad dog.

Anyway,what I do in the morning before flag-raising:










Got more but I lazy alrd.Hahas,YESSSSSS;B's calling me later,omgomgomg=]]<3Nd I'm happy for N&C=]]

Ohkay,I feel fucked up but please don't be affected cause it's my problem.Sam is the sweetest thing ever,no wonder Grace is so damn happy everytime,hahas.Sam bought me flowers nd she didn't want to wake me up just now so she left them outside.I love you Sam;really really do=]

Enough said;my knn day will be over by midnight nd I'll start off tmr smiling;yes I will.No,I'm not going to let school affect me;might meet Joongie tmr=]]

Val,Bro,JoyK;We'll get through this year together alright,ask me for help if you'll need cause I'll always be here for you<33

I'm so going to die now;I'm suppose to take the pills 3times a day,one each time.I've already took 8pills today.Hahas,I seriously cannot have tablets with me,I just keep eating them like no tomorrow.But whatever;I gave Aleena 5of them=[[[[[[Now I only have like 2=[[I need to go get more from the doctor.

I love you more than anything I could ever love.
You might not know how much you mean to me but,
Whatever you need,I'll do it for you;
Whatever you want,I'll get it for you cause babe,
You are my number one star.

Put the weight on my shoulders,
and the pain in my heart.
Tie the knots in my stomach,
and let it tear me apart.
So I could be everything you need.